A Stumble Here, A Bumble There

31 May


The truth is, I stumble and bumble just like all other writers.  There is so much to learn and that’s on top of trying to perfect one’s craft, which is never-ending, or at least it should be never-ending, right?

I’m still trying to learn how to make a podcast.  Well, I can actually make one now, but what I want to do is make a quality podcast, one I can be proud of, and that takes considerably more time. So hang in there and be patient with me.

I have so much I want to do and so little time.


“Know the true value of time; snatch, seize, and enjoy every moment of it. No idleness, no laziness, no procrastination: never put off till tomorrow what you can do today.” Philip Stanhope, 4th Earl of Chesterfield

This has always been a struggle for me….enjoying every moment.  I’m too busy to enjoy it, damn it!  LOL  But I’m learning, slowly, to step away and enjoy the process of life.

I’ll never be perfect.  The logical part of me accepts that but still, I’m driven to be perfect, and therein lies the struggle.  No matter how good I am on any given day, it is never good enough.  I’m not sure where that comes from but I know it is true.

No matter how much I do it will never be enough.  Illogical but again, true!

Maybe it’s from watching my dad die in my arms when I was twenty.  Maybe it’s having a dear friend fade away from Alzheimer’s, or having my best friend recently be told that bone cancer was killing him quickly.  These things weigh on me, and drive me on, and there appears to be no shut-off valve….and in truth I’m not sure I want such a valve.

I believe we are here on earth to achieve a higher purpose than just breathing and going through the motions.  I’ll have more than enough time to rest once I die.  For now, I’m among the living, and the living should, well, live like their tail-feathers are on fire.

Am I the only one who feels this way?


Again I want to point you in the direction of a new website started by a friend of mine….John Hansen is involved in the site, The Creative Exiles….stop and take a look at it. I think you’ll find it worth your time.

And another shout out to Mike Friedman for his wonderful work on my book covers.  He is quite good at this book cover thing as well as being an excellent writer. Check out “The Carriage Driver,” available on Amazon.


I  guess that’s it for this week.  I’ve got quail to feed and ducks to laugh at…and then there’s the ghostwriting gig I’ve got going on, and the latest Billy the Kid novella, and articles and learning about podcasts and sweet angels above, where does the time go?


“Helping writers to spread their wings and fly.”

15 Responses to “A Stumble Here, A Bumble There”

  1. Janine Huldie May 31, 2016 at 9:36 pm #

    I am with you on always doing more than I truly have time for here and probably one of the many reasons we do get along so well. That said wishing you a wonderful easier rest of your day now at the very least. 😉

    • Billybuc May 31, 2016 at 10:15 pm #

      Janine, I can spot a perfectionist a mile a way. LOL Thanks for sharing in my angst!

  2. Cynthia June 1, 2016 at 12:19 am #

    Live like your tail feathers are on fire. YEAH! I love that. Am trying to do just that and never settle for the status quo. There really is so much to do – it’s an art figuring out how to relax and when. 🙂

    • Billybuc June 1, 2016 at 2:12 pm #

      Lil Sis, I love that…it’s an art figuring out how to relax and when…true words, my friend.

      Hugs coming your way!

  3. 1authorcygnetbrown June 1, 2016 at 2:29 am #

    There’s a scary kind of excitement that comes when you realize that you are doing exactly what you are supposed to be doing. How do you know when you have reached that point? “Do what you love to do and you will never work a day in your life” I think that I am getting closer to that realization every day. How about you?

    • Billybuc June 1, 2016 at 2:13 pm #

      Donna, I never feel like I’m working when I’m writing. If it weren’t for this old body getting tired sitting so long, I would probably write more than I do. LOL Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

      • 1authorcygnetbrown June 1, 2016 at 3:02 pm #

        That has been me too! It is amazing what a minute of exercise every hour can do to get that old blood pumping though to get my creative juices flowing again!

  4. denisewa58 June 1, 2016 at 3:38 pm #

    I think that all of us stumble and bumble through life! If we didn’t make mistakes, we wouldn’t learn the vital life lessons that make life meaningful! I used to feel driven to accomplish things, but I have kind of slowed down. The last death in our family took a lot out of me, and I am having trouble getting my gumption back! Like I have heard some people say, “My get up and go has got up and went!” Kudos to you, Bill, for all you have been able to accomplish!

    • Billybuc June 1, 2016 at 7:18 pm #

      Thank you Denise and I’m very sorry to hear of your loss. Blessings to you and yours, my friend.

  5. Greg Boudonck June 1, 2016 at 3:58 pm #

    Here, here…from a fellow stumble and bumbler that is loving life. Thanks for this inspiration Bill.

    • Billybuc June 1, 2016 at 7:18 pm #

      My pleasure, Greg, and thank you for your friendship.

  6. lawrencehebb June 1, 2016 at 11:33 pm #

    Loved this blog. Cos identify with much of it and you’re right, why waste a moment doing nothing when you can enjoy doing something?
    I’ve looked at Johns site but need to pull it up on the laptop to fill in all the details.

    • Billybuc June 2, 2016 at 2:03 pm #

      Speaking for John, Lawrence, I thank you. Speaking for myself, I thank you! Have a great weekend.

  7. Shauna L Bowling June 2, 2016 at 8:52 pm #

    Bill, I understand your drive to be the best and do as much as you can. It’s just your nature. But, having experienced the death of loved ones before their time should also remind you to stop and smell the roses. Don’t work yourself to death. What items do you have on your bucket list that don’t involve working yourself 26 hours a day?

    You’re already achieving your goals of being a published author and a successful urban farmer. What else would you like to do just for pure enjoyment? When was the last time you went camping? Just think of the photos you could take to enhance future stories! (You can tell yourself you’re on a working journey)

    Take some time to enjoy, breathe, and be free. Remember that beautiful lady standing on the mountaintop spreading her arms towards the sun? You need some of that and you have the perfect partner to take you on that flight.

    Just sayin’ cuz I love ya, bud……

    • Billybuc June 3, 2016 at 1:59 pm #

      Thank you Sha! Oddly, Bev and I spend a great deal of time together, so that’s not a problem. Evenings and weekends are for us and family…it’s just during weekdays that I allow my obsession and drive to take over my life…..so be it. I’m happy and doing what I love doing, even though I’ll never be satisfied with the results. LOL


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